Sunday, October 16, 2005

My First Homily

Jesus a Man of Integrity
Homily on the Twenty-Ninth Sunday in Ordinary Time
(Is 45:1, 4-6; 1 Thes 1:1-5b; Matt 22:15-21)
St. Leo the Great Parish, North Altona
October 15, 2005
“Thank You”

“Thanksgiving and Congratulations!” is the theme of the letter of St. Paul to the Thessalonians which we hear from the Second Reading.

Together with Silvanus and Timothy, Paul expressed his gratitude and praise for the church of Thessalonika for their faith in God, charitable acts to one another and perseverance and hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.

I come here this evening, with a joyful heart like St. Paul’s, to thank and congratulate not the Thessalonians, but you all, the people of North Altona.

Thank you for your support, encouragement and prayers. You know that you have been part of my journey toward my training to the priesthood.

Last Saturday, in St. Patrick’s cathedral, I was ordained as deacon by Archbishop Hart, together with three seminarians for the Archdiocese of Melbourne. Ordination to the diaconate is the final step towards the priesthood. At the ceremony, we committed ourselves to lifelong celibacy for the sake of the Kingdom of God. We promised obedience to the Archbishop and to his successors. Most of all, we received the ministry to serve God’s people and to proclaim the Gospel.

Last Monday, I celebrated my fifth year in Australia. It seems only yesterday, when I left my home country, the Philippines, I was then full of uncertainties and doubt whether I made the right decision in joining the seminary here.

Five years ago, my mother accompanied me on my flight to Australia but we were immediately separated as soon as we arrived at the airport because a priest from the seminary picked me up and took me to the seminary in Carlton.

In the evening the priest drove me to the presbytery of Fr. Paul, where I would be staying until the school year began. Unfortunately, Fr. Paul was not home or probably he was just hiding from me!

So we drove back to the seminary, disappointed. I remember the priest was so apologetic to me. It wasn’t a good welcome was it?

After a while, we went back to the presbytery and we got Fr. Paul at last! I remember Fr. Paul welcomed me and gave me a fatherly hug. That was the beginning of my journey in Australia. I am thankful to God that I started the new episode of my life in Australia, with a humble priest and with the generous parishioners of St. Leo’s.

So borrowing the words of St. Paul, I say to you all, “I (we) always mention you in my prayers and thank God for you all, and constantly remember before God our Father how you have shown your faith to me in action.”

The Pharisees

It’s been a week already since my ordination and I still can’t believe that I am now a cleric. I am now a member of the hierarchy of the bishops, priests and deacons. I am now an ordained minister of the Catholic Church. I am now one of the leaders of our religion.

And so when I was reflecting on the Gospel reading today I was warned and alerted not to be like the Pharisees.

In the Gospel, we hear Jesus called the Pharisees and Herodians hypocrites. The word “hypocrite” is a term meaning “an actor” probably a “stage actor” or simply a pretender.

The Pharisees were leaders of sect within Judaism at the time of Jesus. They were known as false interpreters of the Scripture and some were extremely hostile to Jesus.

The Gospel we hear this evening is a classic account of how the Pharisees tried to put down the integrity of Jesus by trapping him in a dilemma. As a tactic the Pharisees first praised Jesus, “Master, we know that you are an honest man and teach the way of God in an honest way.”

After this they asked Jesus, “Tell us your opinion, then. Is it permissible to pay taxes to Caesar or not?”

The dilemma is this, if Jesus should answer it was all right to pay tax to the Emperor, Jesus would be ostracized or hated by the common people who saw paying taxes to the Emperor as an offense to Israel. Many Jews saw paying taxes to the emperor as a symbol of political and economic subjugation.

But if Jesus should answer it was against God to pay taxes to the Roman Empire then he would be accused by the Pharisees as an anti-Roman, if not a revolutionary.

Jesus’ clever response put his enemies in silence. He showed them a coin saying, “Whose head is this? Whose name?” The Pharisees replied, “Caesar’s.” He then said his classic response, “Give back to Caesar what belongs to Caesar – and to God what belongs to God.”

Integrity of Jesus

The issue here is not only about the general principle of the relationship between religion and society, or our legal responsibility to the State and our obligation to give God what belongs to him.

The Gospel today is also inviting us to look at the integrity of Jesus. Jesus, as opposed to the Pharisees, is a man of integrity, honesty and truthfulness.

Jesus wants us to have a sincere heart.

“Deep human relationship, whether in friendship, family, marriage, or any form of commitment, is sustained by goodwill, honesty and sincere heart.”

God wants us to be true to our words. “A hypocrite does not give to God what belongs to God, for God wants a sincere heart. Only an upright heart pleases God.”

We pray in this Mass, asking for God’s help and grace to shape our lives according to the gentle and humble heart of his Son, Jesus, so that like him we may all stand out in our community not as Pharisees but as persons of integrity.

Monday, October 10, 2005

I am Yours



Ah, they now call me "Reverend." I feel so little. I feel unworthy...

"I said, Ah Lord; look, I do not know how to speak; I am a child! But the Lord replied. 'Do not say, and I am a child'. Go now to those to whom I send you and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to protect you - it is the Lord who speaks." (Jer 1:6-7)

Thursday, October 06, 2005

My Dear Diarya*

My Dear Diarya,

Ang mga ginawa ko ngayong araw na ito ay:

Gumising ng 6:05, 6:10, 6:15 at 6:20 ng umaga, naligo at nakaabot sa naman sa 6:45 Morning Prayers. Nagmeditate ng 30 minutes (partly nakatulog “sleeping with the Lord”) sa Gospel reading of the day: “The Lord’s Prayer (Lk 11:1-4). Pinaulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa isip ko “Lord, teach us to pray.” Tapos Misa ng 7:30.

Nagbreakfast ng ‘darak at conditioner’ (tawag ko sa cereals, cornflakes and the like). Habang kumakain ng ‘patuka sa manok’ naki-epal ako sa grupo ng mahihilig sa morning quiz bee sa newspapers. Napanis laway ko. Out of 15 questions isang lang ang nasagot ko naunahan pa ko ng one split second. Tanong: “Notably what soldier was ordered from the Philippines to Australia in 1945?” Answer: Douglas Mac Arthur. Yabang! Yun pa di ko masagot.

9am. Naka-set na ang books, notes, articles at ang pinahiram sa akin na laptop computer na kailangan ko pag-gawa ng assignment essay. Kinakailangan ko kasing lumabas ng kwarto ko dahil kung hindi ay mag-poprocrastinate lang ako (kagaya ng ginagawa ko ngayon).

Around 10 am tinawagan ko ang favorite kong classmate na babae nung highschool na isa ng nurse sa L.A. Halata ang American accent niya habang umoorder ng Piattos, Chippy, pusit at chichirya sa pinsan niya na nasa kabilang linya. Ang cute! Binigyan ko siya ng konting updates tungkol sa classmates namin at ilang contact numbers nila. Sinabi ko na naging crush ko siya nung hs pero di naman siya naniwala at naiba ko naman bigla ang topic.

11.30 nasa recreation room na ako. Nakapatong ang laptop sa table-tennis board at ready na talaga akong magsimula. Dumating si Fr. Fabian para mag-init ng kanyang paboritong niyang Indian cuisine lunch. Lunch time na pala! Dumating din si Anh, 5th year seminarian from Vietnam para magsaing ng rice. Pag-lunch kasi dito sandwich lang pagkain pero solve na dun ang mga Aussies! Matamlay ang mukha ni Anh nang makitang ubos na ang stock ng bigas. Nagvolunteer ako ng kumuha ng bigas dahil gutom na rin ako.

11.45 naglakad ako papunta sa grocery store. May nadaanan akong tindahan ng mga formal dress for men. Tumingin ako ng formal suit. May inirecommend sa akin ang may-ari. Nang itanong ko ang price ay dali-dali akong lumabas. Suit & trousers: $995.00 (multiply by 40 pesos= P39,800!!!)

12:30 pauwi nako bit-bit ang 10 kilos na rice. Maraming ala-ala ang bumalik habang naglalakad ako pauwi. Naalala ko pag-iigib ako ng tubig nuong wala pa kami gripo sa bahay. Naalala ko si Renalyn B., crush ko nung grade 5 na nakakasabay ko minsan sa pagbili ng pandesal, mantika, Maling o itlog sa malapit na sari-sari store tuwing 5:30 ng umaga. Pagbalik ko sa recreation room wala na si Anh. Tinawagan ko siya bakit ang napaka-tagal ko daw. Akala niya sa kitchen lang ako kukuha ng bigas! Buti di siya umiyak. Naalala ko bigla ang Vietnam Rose.

1:05pm nag-internet ako habang inaantay maluto ang sinaing ni Anh. 2:00pm nang matapos akong maglunch. Bumalik ako agad sa kwarto ko—this is the biggest mistake I ever done today. Dahil pag ganitong oras nagiging time-space-war ang kwarto ko. Nagkamalay na lang ako bandang 3:30pm sa dami ng tumatawag phone ko at isang text message na mula kay Pinky.

4:00pm. Hinakot ko na pabalik sa kwarto ko ang laptop at mga books na kailangan ko sana sa pag-gawa ng essay. It’s unbelievable. This can’t be true! (sabi ko sa sarili ko.) Wala akong nagawa.

4:30pm nasa city ako para maghanap ng suit and pants na isusuot para sa kasal ko sa Saturday (actually pag-katapos ng kasal ko). Marami akong pinasok na stores sa Melbourne Central (mall). Nagulat ako may mas mataas pa pala sa unang price nanakita ko kanina— suit lang $1,099 na! (o P43, 960). Ang budget ko ay $200 lang (bigay ng ate ko).

Sa kalalakad ay nakasalubong ko si Tita Heide, kaibigang kong Filipina. Sinamahan niya ako sa paghahanap ng damit ko. Kailangan kong magmadali dahil may evening prayers kami ng 6:00pm. Ang pinakamura ay $349+15 (alteration of trousers)= $360. Pero $150 lang ang binayad ko si Tita Heide na ang the rest. Gift daw niya sa akin. Ang bait niya talaga. Is this part of the hundredfold which Christ was saying about those who have left their family, friends and loved ones for the sake of God’s service?

6pm. Evening prayer. The magnificat anthiphon is “The Almighty has done great things for me; Holy is his name.” Very true indeed!

7:20pm. Tumawag ako sa mga friends ko para iconfirm kung makakarating sila sa kasal ko this Saturday. Habang kausap ko ang isang kaibigan kong Pilipina, narinig ko sa TV nila si Toni Gonzaga. Pinoy Bigbrother na! Si ate Racquel ang hula kong matatanggal this coming Sunday. Sana magtagal muna si Sam sa Bahay ni Kuya dahil alam ko pag napapanuod siya ng mga kaibigan ko sa Pinas ay parang nakikita din nila ako sa TV screen so hindi nila ako gaanong mamiss. (Di naman kumidlat, siguro totoo, hehe.)

8:23pm. I have to stop here now. Wednesday ngayon matagal na akong hindi nakapagnovena kay Mama Mary, Our Lady of Perpetual Help.


Night Prayer:
“ Lord, give our bodies restful sleep; and let the work we have done today be sown for an eternal harvest. Through Christ our Lord.”

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* Ang My Dear Diarya ay kinopya ko sa pamagat ng kwelang blogs ni Mr. Dj. Makamasa ang kanyang kwento at nakakatuwang basahin.

Love Letter

I composed this entry last 19 August as my written response to one of the seven questions which my Archbishop would ask me on my ordination to the diaconate this coming Saturday.

Strangely enough, after I finished writing my “intention to commitment to celibacy” I remembered the love letters I wrote in high-school and college, when I opened my heart and vulnerability to the object of my love. This is what Christ did when he died and suffered on the Cross in Cavalry 2,000 years ago.

“In the presence of God and the Church, are you resolved, as a sign of your interior dedication to Christ, to remain celibate for the sake of the kingdom and in lifelong service to God and mankind?”


I promise with sincere faith in the presence of God and the Church, that I am resolved to embrace faithfully a lifelong commitment to celibacy. As I publicly take this oath to remain celibate for the rest of my life, I express with full sincerity my interior dedication and personal response to the love of Jesus Christ.

I promise to observe the law of celibacy from the very day of my ordination until the end of my life and I am resolved to faithfully live a lifelong celibacy not only as an expression of my personal commitment to follow Christ, but also as an outward sign of my humble resignation for his service, and deepest desire to make myself available for his people. In particular, I ought to offer myself to God with undivided heart and self-less love and I am willing to serve his Church to the best of my ability for the rest of my life.

I earnestly believe that celibacy is an invitation and a beautiful gift from God. To remain celibate for the sake of the kingdom and in lifelong service to God and humankind is a wonderful opportunity to dwell deeply in the mystery of God’s love. With great joy and thankful heart, I therefore feel privileged to accept wholeheartedly the gift of celibacy which God offers me in this ministry. I am prepared to act in accordance with this lifestyle and more importantly I am resolved to continually enter into a deeper personal relationship with Christ.

As I promise to observe the law of celibacy throughout all my life, I am also aware that celibate life is a very challenging way of life; there will be emptiness, temptation and difficulty that I will encounter in the future. With this in mind, I completely entrust myself to the grace of God through the inspiration of the Holy Spirit that I may always remain steadfast in prayer life and faithful in my commitment to celibacy both in deed and word.

Invitation


With Praise and Thanks to God

You are warmly invited to be present when

Justin Bernard Ford

Kieran Patrick Meade

Thinh Xuan Nguyen

John Joel Vergara

are ordained to the Diaconate

by the Most Reverend Denis J. Hart D.D.
Archbishop of Melbourne

On Saturday October 8th, 2005 at 10.00 am

At Saint Patrick’s Cathedral
Albert Street, East Melbourne

Concelebrants are requested to bring white vestments
and to be vested at the Knox Centre by 9.30 am

Refreshments will be served following the ceremony
at Catholic Theological College, 278 Victoria Parade, East Melbourne (cnr Eades St)